A year ago today my nephew Lewis passed away, suddenly, just shy of his 22nd birthday.
Today I wanted to take a photograph which symbolises hope, as well as sharing a couple of photos and memories of Lewis.
I’ve chosen the photo above for one of my pictures for today because even in the midst of winter, and today was really quite cold, you can find delicate flowers blooming, bringing colour and hope. I also love the purple of the new leaves against the green.
Whilst I was out walking looking for a photograph to take, two geese flew right over my head. I saw them coming towards me and then as they passed just a few feet above me, the noise of their wings was mesmerising. I’ve never heard anything quite like it. I managed to get a photo of them as they flew away from me but not when they were over head. But in a way I am glad because the sound of their wings was so magical; a picture would never do justice to the feeling I had watching them and hearing their wings beat.
There was something about the encounter, the fact they were a pair and seemed to be connected by an invisible link, that made me feel hopeful again. Hopeful that through all the grief my family has lived with over this last year, our invisible bonds hold us together and hold Lewis close in our hearts.
Lewis was my eldest nephew and as the photograph below shows perfectly what a wonderful big brother he was to his 4 younger sisters. The baby he is holding is his sister Matilda, who is now 10!
My memories of Lewis are all happy ones, like hunting for blood sucker insects with him at my brother and sister-in-laws wedding. Braving the crowds at Hamleys toyshop to get him a motorbike model for Christmas. Laughing with him after he was told off for putting too much vinegar on his chips as I added some more for him. The time he learnt to ride his bike (picture below just look at the determination on his face) or making pancakes for him and his sisters on a Sunday morning. Or when he was older, feeling proud for how he campaigned to get a skate park built by the council.
We miss you Lewis. And I just want to send love to everyone who is missing him also. xxx